Monthly Archives: June 2015

This guy

I don’t feel like doing the fertility stuff this month. It’s Day 3 and I should go for the blood test, but I don’t. Obsessing about Dave now. Interesting how the mind can change gears like that. My daydreams are … Continue reading

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Acupuncture

First visit with Nicky. She asks a lot of questions about my body, feels my pulse, looks at my tongue. Ultimately tells me to eat red things: yams, kidney beans, salmon, raddichio, cherries, tomatoes, beets. The acupuncture session is surprisingly … Continue reading

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Planes

A little after 9am, I am doing yoga in my living room when Faye, my office manager, calls. “The office is closed. I’m going down the list.” “Why?” She sounds impatient. “We’re under attack. World Trade Towers have collapsed.” “WHAT?” … Continue reading

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Out and About

My friend Lorraine invites me to a party at her house. “There will be lots of single guys there,” she says. We’ve known each other since we were 19, working together at a design firm. She’s South African with a super … Continue reading

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Break time

Well, dear Reader, I would like to tell you it all got better then, but truth is, I did two more insemination cycles and was disappointed both times. Pretty devastating stuff, the build ups and the crashes are just too … Continue reading

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Options

At my insemination appointment, Sheila tells me about embryo adoption. The clinic where she worked in Dallas has a program. “Much cheaper than egg donation,” she says, “Because you don’t have to finance the donor’s cycle of egg retrieval, and … Continue reading

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Passenger

And here we go again. Ultrasounds, blood tests, follicles, surges, inseminations, and the waiting. Insurance will pay for two more cycles and I’ll continue the adoption adventure. When I go in for my HCG shot, Sheila sends me to ask Victor … Continue reading

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Adoption

Meantime, Emmanuelle’s neighbor Margaret has adopted three children and gives me the number of her agency. I call and make an appointment with an agent named Jane. Jane charges $100-150 per session, but doesn’t tell me until the end, which … Continue reading

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Recovery

For the next few days, friends call from all over. Excited, expecting good news. Sorry, folks, didn’t happen. I have visitors; there are tears and laughter and a lot of wine. Dr. S. and I talk, and I ask him … Continue reading

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Waiting

All sorts of twinges and morning feelings, but I’ve been told not to get too excited as the hormones manifest pregnancy symptoms. I ask Patti if she’ll give me my progesterone shot, she says sure and when I arrive at … Continue reading

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